alone in the desert

wouah, this is incredible, i feel like i'm doing my best and trying to keep my head out of the water and reach a shore, any kind of land, an island, a ship, anything so i don't drown... but it's getting harder and harder. i asked for an emergency meeting with T., maybe he can help me, and i will also meet with someone from the psychology department, that can be a good thing. i wrote to the secretary of the psych dept and asked her for a name, anyone who would be an expert in attitude surveys, and she sent the email to the whole dept and one person responded. i know it's a bad time in the semester to do that, everyone's overwhelmed with work and stuff, but i need help, desperatly! every time i think i've done something good, it turns out that it's not good enough or not what i needed to do.

last night i also sent a list of constructs to some experts in nonnative issues, george, paul, lia, aya, elza, tony, rosie, and ahmar, to ask for some fresh perspectives and comments, and paul, george, and aya responded so far, and i did get some interesting feedback, so that feels like a little island in the middle of the ocean, a place to rest for a minute. but it also made me realize that some things are still unclear, and i just want to screem and burn the whole thing and jump out the window. fortunately it's too cold and i can't even make myself get out of bed because i'd freeze right away!

the in-a-year graduation seems less and less likely...

could someone please offer me the Dissertation Journey book that's in my wishlist? That'd be soooo kind of you!

ps. got a positive response from the tq review editor about the book review i wanted to write. yeah! will work on that asap!