things are going well

i was not nominated as vice-chair of the nnest caucus, thank goodness, too bad for my CV and my ego, but it's MUCH better for my work! but now they want to nominate me as CHAIR, directly, since the actual chair is stepping down... i just wanna die, these days, i am SOOOO exhausted. seriously, things are going well but it's too much, i am so worried about my research! and now the chair thing... goodness, look at me, what good could i do to this caucus?? i'm already unable to organize one meeting every other week for the esl department! this is crazy!