the deal
so here's the sad deal. i was going to get a phd in 4 years instead of the usual 5 but no, looks like i won't. i sooooo want to get out of here and now i'm stuck here for another 2 years. depressing also to tell myself that i was just not able to do it all and well. had to drop the international administration class, which was by far the best class i've ever taken, but i'm keeping law, which is tough. and hopefully, i can get back to working on this f'ing dissertation. plus going to conferences. plus working on the IAWE website. plus finishing my TQ article. plus taking stats lessons. plus giving more time for to students so that last semester's desaster doesn't repeat itself. plus going home this summer for a couple of weeks.
dammit, twenty seven more months here!! i am beyond depressed!!!!
posted by Lucie @ 9:12 PM
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8 commentaires:
Lulu, there is NOTHING to be ashamed of, you're being realistic and are acting to your best interest and to the best interest of your phD. And there's only one thing I can say: chapeau bas. I wish I could be that realistic about my time management.
For the "1 more year in cornland" business... I can start a massive export of chocolate towards La Fayette, to be sure you get enough "drug" to carry on ! ;) The only problem being the quality of british chocolate, which isn't comparable to swiss or french chocolate... hm... okay let's export fudge then !! ;)
Kiara: thanks. but my whole life's been like that: wanting to do it and not being able to do as much as i wanted to. like this christmas in europe, i wanted to see so many people and got soooo tired that i wasn't even able to see my best friends! i always start with tons of energy and enthusiasm and end up giving up. and everyone's nice about it and my parents say they can help me one more year and it's not a problem and my advisor is so nice too and all... but i just feel like the biggest loser on earth. i'm never going to go anywhere.
talking about fudge, i am going to have to buy a coffre fort to keep it safe, because Sosso is so crazy about it that she'll climb on walls and risk her life to get some! crazy cats :)
I still believe you're doing very well by admit(t?)ing that you've reached your limits, and look, you're not actually giving up, you are re-scheduling !
I'll carry on with the idea that it's a great strength to be able to be realistic, because even if you think that you've become realistic too late, because your goals were originally too high, well actually it is NOT too late (too late is when you're depressed and just totally give up, which nearly happened to me last year).
And to be fair, before starting, you couldn't really know it was going to be so hard/time consuming. Now that you know, you're being realistic and not stubborn. Bravo !! I AM impressed.
kiara: you are in the wrong profession! you should be a shrink :)
well maybe that'll give me some time to go to england next summer... scotland... ireland... ? will you still be there?
Scotland ! I'm moving to Edinburgh at Easter, and after that... well I'll be waiting for you ! :)
great :) i think i'll need some time off from cornland, this summer, to recover from all the hard work i won't have done ;)
OK, I'm baffled. You say you want to finish sooner, but then you signed up to take TWO classes. Plus all these other things that you did NOT say no to. If you want to finish your dissertation you need to learn to make no the first word out of your mouth when someone even hints that they want you to take on a new responsibility. Double for taking ANY classes. The important question to ask is, if I say yes and this means I spend one MORE semester working on the dissertation, would it seem worth it five to seven years from now. Remember that in your last year you will be busy with job search (assuming you want a job) and you'll have LESS time to work on your dissertation then.
Scott, maybe i want to take those classes because i've been forced to take 6 years of useless classes in phonology and syntax and other similarly retarded classes and i would like to take at least TWO classes that i enjoy and find useful before i graduate! i see your point, though. i guess i just can't do it all...
Candy: having breakfast with you tomorrow in a little cafe in paris would make things just so much better :)
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