money

well i've decided to give up one of my variables for lack of money: the NNEST vs NEST. i can't have my questionnaires translated into 20 languages, given that 1 translation is already $2000! so there, i won't compare native and nonnative teachers. it's sad because it would have made my study really unique... nobody has done that before... but i'm opening a door for future research :)

talked to margie yesterday-- am still taking her class just for fun, because i've decided that it's not extra time that i spend in her class when i could be doing something smarter but rather a time i take for myself when i can actually enjoy learning and not having to worry about exams or papers or homework or readings-- so anyway, i told her that i'm a little tired and getting close to losing it. she said i could come to her office to "melt" if i wanted to and not feel too alone... also that i could defend the prospectus in january if i wanted to. but i don't want to. i want a christmas break without ANYTHING to worry about... plus i want the glory of having done it fast and well. hehe.

still don't know what i'll be teaching in the spring and i'm worried that no one will give up on the international students so i'll be stuck with americain students who don't particularly like me and vice-versa. i made a student cry yesterday... great job... i'm a pretty bad teacher this semester, it's sad. oh well, can't do it all well, right? i'm not superwoman!